Loneliness

I don't know why, i feel that kind of feeling lately. I feel lonely, and sometimes feel left out. This feeling start to come when my best friend Rika married, and have a plan to move to Singapore with her husband. I can say that she is my best friend ever, in good times or in bad times. We spent much time together, hang out, shopping watching or just stay at her place talking all night long about what we feel.

And this feeling getting stronger when my cousin Yuyun will married also in this 23rd June. From all of my relatives, i can say that she's the closest one to me. She know everything about me, and so do i - know everyhing about her. I used to talk about everything with her, and used to hang out with her after office hour or on the weekend when my boyfie can't take me out. We used to go to karaoke and sing for 2 hours until our voice hoarse..

One month after married, she said she will move also to Bogor with her husband. And suddenly i feel like left out. I start to think, what will happen if i feel sad ?? Can i still have their shoulder to cry on ?? What if i need them ?? will they still be there for me ??

Honestly i feel scared, i'm freak out. I know it's kinda a weird feeling, very weird. I should be happy for them, because they will have a new life with someone they loved. But i'm scared they will forget about me as they have a new life. 

Dear Allah, please don't let me have this feeling. Please get rid of it !! This feeling is so silly and not supposed to exist, i feel so childish and selfish. I know they will never really left me. But even if that thing happen, i know i still have You...