Dear God...
My life seems so confusing right now.
I always thingking, did i already make the right choice ??
Did the decision that i've made is right ??
Did i choose the right person ??
Dear God...
If the fact is i've made the wrong decision.
If the fact is i choose the wrong person.
If the fact is i have to crumble again.
Please...
Please give me strength to face it
Give me strength to live it
And give me strength to move on
Aug 19, 2011
Aug 18, 2011
Broken Hearted
Finally... The day that i always avoid is come, the day that i never expected, the day that i have to let go of Ben.
And as i've been estimated before, it will be hard. Very hard...
But thank God, i am surrounded by a lot of people that care about me a lot.
At last, i have to make a choise. A very difficult choice.
I have to choose between Ben and Ade.
Ade is a new guy in my life, he's a friend of my friend.
We're not spent so much time before we decided to try having a relationship.
And honestly i have no clue about him, but i just want to try.
He's quite nice and i feel comfort when i'm with him.
Although yes, he's not as good as Ben. And no one can compare his kindness.
But however, i have to move on. I cannot preserve my relationship with Ben because it is never real.
And will never be real. Although my feel with him is the most real feeling i ever felt.
Living a couple days without him, it's feel like something missing.
It's feel so hard to breath, my chest feel so stuffy.
And i can't hold my self to write a message to him through YM, just want him to know that i miss him so much.
And i'm very sure that he has the same feeling like i do.
Ben, if you knew ... And i'm sure you knew that the time i've been spent with you is the most precious time in my life.
I will miss our conversation, our argument, i'm gonna miss your advice and your support as well.
I'm gonna miss everything about you, and i hope God will give me strength to get through it and to live my life without you like before.
I love you Ben, and will always love you...
And as i've been estimated before, it will be hard. Very hard...
But thank God, i am surrounded by a lot of people that care about me a lot.
At last, i have to make a choise. A very difficult choice.
I have to choose between Ben and Ade.
Ade is a new guy in my life, he's a friend of my friend.
We're not spent so much time before we decided to try having a relationship.
And honestly i have no clue about him, but i just want to try.
He's quite nice and i feel comfort when i'm with him.
Although yes, he's not as good as Ben. And no one can compare his kindness.
But however, i have to move on. I cannot preserve my relationship with Ben because it is never real.
And will never be real. Although my feel with him is the most real feeling i ever felt.
Living a couple days without him, it's feel like something missing.
It's feel so hard to breath, my chest feel so stuffy.
And i can't hold my self to write a message to him through YM, just want him to know that i miss him so much.
And i'm very sure that he has the same feeling like i do.
Ben, if you knew ... And i'm sure you knew that the time i've been spent with you is the most precious time in my life.
I will miss our conversation, our argument, i'm gonna miss your advice and your support as well.
I'm gonna miss everything about you, and i hope God will give me strength to get through it and to live my life without you like before.
I love you Ben, and will always love you...
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